Thursday, July 16, 2009

Making excuses; why should I?

Bob and I went to our ballroom dance class last night, and I found myself in the position of having to explain myself. See, I can only dance for about an hour, and then my legs start to shake and I have trouble moving them (especially the left one). I also get muscle cramps in my feet, and now I'm starting to have "freezing" problems, too, where one leg just doesn't move when the rest of the body does, so I slip and/or fall.

Last night, after a wonderful hour of learning to Samba (a really fun dance, by the way), I slipped a couple of times and almost fell, and since my feet had cramped up and I was having trouble moving anyway, I decided to call it a night. Well, several people tried to get me to keep going; they thought I was just giving up too soon, I guess. I had to explain that I have Parkinson's and I just can't keep going as long as they can. That was good enough for most of the folks, but a couple of the guys clearly didn't get it. They kept trying to encourage me to try again. I know they were trying to help, but it made me feel so "wussy"!

The problem is that I've always prided myself on not being a quitter. I may not be the best at what I'm trying to do, but I stick with it. So, when someone implies that I'm not trying hard enough, it hurts. I don't think that most people understand that it's not just a question of strength and determination. I've got plenty of strength and determination, thank you very much. I have to respect my limits, though, especially if it becomes a safety issue.

I guess next time I should say something like "Gee, I'd love to be able to keep going, but if I do, I'm likely to fall, and that wouldn't be a pretty sight. Besides, I might just take you with me!" That would get them!


Anonymous said...

Hang in there Marian...even if you leave early your not a quitter! Keep up the good work out may not realize it but you are educating those who are ignorant about your illness!!
Love ya always...b'nana

Nicole Freeman Browncat87 said...

Hey, Marian, you are not a quitter,first of all. They should be congratulating themselves to have a genuine PD er in the class. You should give yourself lots of pats on the back(cuz I am doing it virtually) and be proud you are moving and having fun. You might be the quiet sort, but your presence speaks volumes. I am proud to know you and I think you are awesome. Love,browncat87

Marian said...

Thanks for your support, Btrflynana and Browncat; you are the best! Love you both!


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I'm a lucky lady. I have a wonderful husband of 27 years, a fantastic 25 year old son (I'm so proud of him!) a loving and supportive family, the best friends in the world, a job that I love, and... Parkinson's Disease. I was diagnosed in September 2006. That was a jolt, but I'm learning to deal with it.